I'm lying in my black bikini on the wide sun lounger right by the pool. The sun is pleasantly hot on my skin, making it feel heavy and relaxed, as if every muscle has melted. I can feel how the fabric of the bikini barely blocks the heat – it's almost as if the sun is caressing my body. I slowly move one leg, letting it glide across the cool, smooth surface of the mattress. My back arches slightly, almost involuntarily, as I take a deep breath. The scent of chlorine, summer, and my coconut sunscreen fills the air. I feel eyes on me – that quiet, tingling awareness of being watched. A shiver runs down my spine, spreading warmly through my stomach. Very slowly, I turn my head to the side and let my gaze wander over the edge of the pool, as if I can only sense the expectant attention. A faint smile plays on my lips. I toy with the idea of getting up, perhaps simply slipping into the water – or staying right here and letting the heat continue to dance on my skin. I push my sunglasses down a little further and lift one knee slightly, causing the thin fabric of my bikini to shift a bit. My heart races. Just the feeling of being able to lie like this, so exposed, so safe – and yet somehow vulnerable – makes me savor the air in my lungs like a hot kiss.
9 months ago